Congratulations

I would like to take the time to post a congratulations to my friends Kevin Patch and Amber Timmons on there beautiful baby Girl Loganne :D I am so happy for the both of you! I hope you guys enjoy your time with her while she is small... it wont last long!

Getting discouraged

I have been working out and eating healthy for a week now, I have been staying on track and following through with getting up early and working out... At the beginning of the week I weighed myself  to see where I was starting, our scale has a body fat percentage stat on it. So after the week of working out everyday even when I was sore I decided to weigh myself again before I ate or anything and I have gained a pound and my body fat percentage went up! WHY! I have been SO good I have worked really hard, I have slipped up once or twice but i was never that bad and I tried to work out more to contradict that. I want to stay on track and stay motivated but why is the scale showing NO progress!! I'm frustrated! I guess that all

Starting Over

So I just finished a 45 minute work out outside while the children were napping and I have to say I feel great! I might be a bit sore tomorrow but honestly it is totally worth it! I love having more energy and feeling better about myself... even if I can't see any results yet i know that they are happening every time I make a healthy decision! I also know that if I continue to make the healthy decisions that I will be happier and have more energy. I am no longer going to focus on losing weight... I am going to focus on being healthy at no matter what weight I am at, and not only am I making healthy decisions I am also making good decisions about making myself a better person. I am going to counciling for some things that have been bothering me for a while that have been making my life harder to tolerate and I have just been miserable. Thats one of the reasons why me and my ex broke up, we are finally getting back to where we used to be... we are laughing again, enjoying eachothers company, we no longer yell at eachother all the time and we finally learning how to communicate and be 50/50 in the relationship! And now that we have come as far as we have we have decided that it is time for him to move back in. I am really excited about this decision but I am also scared, I want things to work and I do not want things to go back to the way that they were. I just hope that we can both stick to our plans and keep moving forward!

Importance of Cleanliness

So I consider myself a fairly clean person, I like to keep a tidy house and yes I do think about what types of germs are living on every surface in my home.
 I don't over do it though, at least I don't think I do. I make sure I don't cross contaminate when making meals, I make sure the counters are always wiped with disinfectant, and I wont let the kids share their drinks or food that they suck on.
So because of this does it mean I am an overprotective parent or afraid of germs?
In my mind I feel I am doing the right thing, I realize that little dirt never hurt any body and it will help build up immune systems, so I don't over clean, and I also know that keeping a clean house is good so there isn't too many bad germs and to teach the children the importance of organization and responsibility.
I know that when the cleaning gets in the way of spending quality time with your family that you are over doing it, because honestly cleaning is not important if you only get a short amount of time to spend with you child. The mess will continue to be there waiting for you when your child is in bed.

Happy Again

This is the happiest I have felt in a LONG time and its GREAT! Granted I still have my days where I can be bitchy or not so happy, but for the most part I just feel content. I made the decision to break it off with my fiance about a month ago and since that happened things just seem to be falling into place better.I seem to be getting my finances a little under control. I finally made an appointment to go and talk to a councilor, and I have finally figured out that I do not need to hold back in a relationship. I need to keep it all out in the open, even if it causes a little tiff I know that a little tiff is better then getting into a screaming match! I finally know that now I need to take more time for myself and I need to do what I want to do and now what everyone else wants me to do. I finally do not care what others think of me, I am going to be me whether people like it or not. Not that I am saying I dont want any friends but if my friends are not going to take me for everything that I am flaws and all then I dont need them. Since I have been happy I am finally losing weight, I have been trying for almost 4 years and now that I am happy I am finally losing. Not a lot but enough to make me happier :D Hopefully it all continues to go well, but I would like to give a  piece of advice.... If you are unhappy in your relationship don't just sit around and wait for it to get better, work your ass off to make it what you want it to be. And if your partner isn't putting in the effort that you are then it is time to sit down for a nice long talk to get on the same page. You have to put in what you want out of it. Thats all I have for today I guess :D

Sun in my Window

Those mornings that I wake up to the sun gleaming through my window are the best mornings! It feels warm and happy, listening to the birds chirping and the smell of the wet grass drying there is just something so relaxing about it. Even if the day turns out to be gloomy and raining you still had a great wake up and its pretty hard for your day to be bad after that. Don't get me wrong, I HATE it when a day turns gloomy after a sunny morning, but I am always just in a better mood when the sun wakes me up rather then the sound of rain. Any ways that's my thought of the day.

Still Learning Motherhood

My daughter is almost 4 years old and I am still learning how to be a good mother. I still make mistakes and I learn from them everyday. I hear all of these new mothers who are pregnant or just had a new born baby that are worried they wont be a good mother. Well I am hear to tell you that just the fact that you are worried about being a good mother means you will be a fabulous mother. All it takes to be a good mother is lots of love. You are going to make mistakes, you are going to wanna tear your hair out, you are going to cry and your child is going to get angry at you no matter what kind of parent you are, and its ok because that is what being a parent is all about. Just remember as long as you are willing to give your child all of the love you are capable of giving then you will be the best mom in the world. There is no such thing as a perfect Mom, but you can be the perfect mom for your child. And just remember being a good mom also means taking time for yourself, having time to yourself is just as important as being there for your child. Well thats all i have to say for today :D